"Women marry men hoping they will change. Men marry women hoping they will not. So each is inevitably disappointed."
Albert Einstein.
Been a while my Dear! Seems like things have changed so much just in the last year, and yes, sometimes I feel like this job is graduallly sucking the life out of me.
You know that because you have to hear me whine every day about it.
But honestly, I don't think I have ever worked for any agency, company, etc that cared less for it's employees than this one does. But it is what it is, I can't change it I can only keep swimming in the quicksand, or else I'll sink.
Some days do seem easier than others, and I just keep telling myself it's only temporary. Hopefully, in less than a year we'll be out of here, and back in a warm climate. That's what we have to look forward to, another chapter in our lives somewhere closer to where we really want to be.
What concerns me more than anything though is not what it is doing to me, but what it is doing to "us".
I can not, and will not let this affect our life any more than it already has. BIG changes are in order, and they need to happen quickly. I feel like I have neglected you.. in more ways than one.
I want you to know that I do desperately want to change that. There are things I need to do, (exercise, stop eating garbage for starters) and people I need to see (you know) and I intend to make it happen, and I know I will. But when I am working what feels like 100 hours a week, it's hard to find the time. But it's coming, so please just be patient.
That being said, working all the time certainly has it's benefits financially, and at least in that regard we are better off than we were before. But that proverbial silver lining in the cloud, comes at a cost.
First, we are overdue for a vacation. A REAL vacation and not to serve some other purpose like the last 2 trips. Just you and me and a Dog named Cosmo.. Ok, then just you and me. Even a weekend trip away somewhere is better than nothing. Winter blues have set in, and thats the cure.
Second is just making changes to our day to day lives. We are kind of in a rut I think, maybe a comfortable rut but a rut none the less. I don't want our mariage to become more stagnant, lifeless and predictible. Instead...a thin slice of heaven every day! As I said.. CH CH CH CHANGES!
Anyway, something IS in the planning stages, (not a dog mushing trip), even though I would like to do that sometime. So in the not too distant future, we'll get away for a few days. Then when Summer comes hopefully I will actually be able to take some time off for the bigger things.
It's a start.
And...
Sorry V Day wasn't as great as the years before. No new car, no trip to Texas (you got a trip, I didn't) . And BTW, I'm still looking for my card.. Did you misplace it? hmmm
Love, Hugs & Kisses,
Russ
