Hang in there

I know I said this before but it's worth repeating I think. I tend to lose my temper over little things and I know that really bothers you. You know that it has nothing to do with you, even though it is directed at you sometimes. It's just a combination of the winter blues and not being able to get out of here and go somewhere that we want to be. I feel like I have let you down in some ways.

It's very important to me to be able to give you the kind of life you want. I want you to be able to join a gym, make new (female) friends and be able to do things that you want to do when you want to without having to drive an hour to do it. I want us to get back to civilization again because being here is not good for us. And I don't want you to leave because you are my life now and I couldn't imagine being without you. So if you could just hang in there, I know something good will happen for us. Besides, it won't be long that we will be able to enjoy some outdoor activities again and that will be really good for both of us.

I am going to work harder every day on the little things that matter. And try not to let the little annoyances annoy me so much. In other words, not be an asshole at times.
I know I said this before too, but all in all I think we are doing ok, we just need that change of scenery to make it closer to perfect.

I love you!
Russ